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Andrew Huberman · 2024-04-08 · 3h 18m

Overcoming Physical & Emotional Challenges | Coleman Ruiz

A former tier-one Navy SEAL tells his full life story, from wrestling mats to combat to a near-fatal depression and the slow climb back.

Overcoming Physical & Emotional Challenges | Coleman Ruiz
The guest

Coleman Ruiz — A former tier-one Navy SEAL special operator (1998-2011) and Naval Academy graduate who served as a platoon commander in Iraq and a BUD/S instructor. Now a civilian, he is COO of Lids Sports Group and speaks openly about PTSD, loss, and recovery.

The gist

Andrew Huberman interviews Coleman Ruiz across his entire life arc, framed as a Hero's Journey. They trace his chaotic New Orleans childhood, how wrestling channeled his wildness and got him into the Naval Academy, his path through BUD/S and into the SEAL Teams and a tier-one special mission unit, and the relentless wartime loss of roughly 40 close teammates. The conversation then turns inward to his post-military struggle: an undiagnosed low-grade trauma, a powerful but destabilizing psychedelic experience, and a severe depression that brought him to the edge of suicide. Ruiz describes how friends, talk therapy, a brief course of medication, physical training, and Joseph Campbell's framework helped him reintegrate. Throughout, Huberman weaves in neurobiology of adolescence, movement, stress, and the immune system.

Big reveals

  • Ruiz says three things predicted who got through BUD/S: being a varsity athlete, having divorced parents, or being suspended from school - 90-95% had one.
  • He explains divorced-parent kids endure because, having felt alone, the team becomes the only family they have and they refuse to leave it.
  • He personally knew exactly 40 people who were killed; for years memorials came roughly every 90 days.
  • He underwent physician-assisted ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT two days apart and calls it 'the nuclear option' he would not recommend as a starting point.
  • Admits he came within one day of the line of taking his own life during a severe depression.
  • A friend's tough-love line - that hurting himself would prove he was a liar and a fraud - became a pivotal turning point.
  • Says sitting down for talk therapy felt more terrifying to him than jumping out of a plane or going into a gunfight.
  • Now serves as COO of Lids Sports Group and says he feels better than he has since college.

Things worth remembering

  • Ruiz traces his early aggression to 'wildness,' citing a scene from the movie The Town rather than malice.
  • He applied to only two schools - the Naval Academy and Stanford - and was initially rejected by the Naval Academy.
  • Tier-one freefall jumps are from 25,000 feet with 30 minutes of pre-breathing oxygen, 100 pounds of gear, fully blacked out.
  • The death of his mentor Doug Zembiec made him conclude 'if Doug can be killed, all bets are off' and that society's rules are 'all made up.'
  • He likens his depression to being filleted open and scorched with a propane torch from the inside, shocked that emotional pain could be so physical.
  • A brief four-month low dose of Wellbutrin (bupropion) helped him 'back away from the danger.'
  • He reliably gets sick the night he returns from deployment - stress suppresses symptoms until the body relaxes.
  • He references the sea squirt, which digests its own nervous system once it stops moving, to explain why movement is essential.
  • His healing started, like for many, only at a version of 'rock bottom' - the pain of staying the same exceeding the pain of change.
  • On fatherhood, he says the key is to 'release the grip' and stop over-gripping an already uncontrollable world.

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